Thursday, July 22, 2010
Frustration
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Tales From an Empty Womb
I don't know how to handle my mother in-law. She has no grandchildren and speaks of this frequently.
She's not pushy or mean. Just utterly passive about how I am slowly destroying her well-being by my not producing babies. Lots and lots of babies.
My husband and I want to have children within the next two years, but if I leak this "time line" to his mother, I fear she will drive me considerably more crazy than she does right now.
She recently adopted a puppy to "fill the void" and is indirectly blaming me for her altered retirement plans: somehow she can no longer travel as she has a dog to take care for.
Help!
Thursday, March 25, 2010
About The Hershey’s Better Basket Blog Hop
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- Leave your link at BetterBasket.info/BlogHop comment section. You can also find the official rules of this better basket blog hop, and more information about Better Basket with Hershey’s there.
- Hershey’s is donating $10 per each blog participating to the Better Basket Blog Hop to Children’s Miracle Network (up to total of $5,000 by blog posts written by April 4th, 2010).
- Please note that only one blog post by each blog url will count towards the donation.
Bless you all and have a wonderful day
Monday, February 8, 2010
A Good Day
I have enjoyed a great many books over the years, but do not have a favorite. Not because none failed to impress me or they did not imprint something in my brain, but because I have never had that moment of being blown away by literature.
And that made me a little sad.
There are many passages and quotations that I love and adore, but then the story in its entirety was a let-down. This has been the case with fiction, which I have learned, I do not really enjoy.
Maybe that's the problem; I almost exclusively read non-fiction and because of that, there are no real surprises. Or my over-critical, unimaginative mind doesn't allow for the necessary "escape" and I do not process surprises, revelations and the like.
Boo me.
While at a bookstore over the weekend, I came across Harold Zinn's "A People's History of the United States", a book that I fondly recalled upon learning of Mr. Zinn's death last month. I was fortunate enough to have a teacher in high school that utilized this publication along side the regular text book; I believe this helped cultivate the US history nerd that is before you.
It also introduced me to the great mind that was Harold Zinn. I heard him lecture on democracy at Vasser College in 2000 and snuck into several more lectures at Boston College that same year. Emma is not performed often enough, but that's just me.
I purchased "A People's History" and started reading it last night. It all came back. The outrage and sadness about how this country came to be, the thankfulness for being born here and the gratitude for Mr. Zinn's words.
A favorite book? Maybe. What's yours?
Monday, January 25, 2010
Disaster Planning?
Do you have evacuation plans for your family and disaster kits assembled in your homes? I wrote about what my plans are here and am very interested in knowing what you have (or have not) done.
Monday, January 11, 2010
To Type or Not to Type...
Does anyone else have this (or similar) problem?
I've never set out to embarrass friends or family and feel that I hold back a lot of my thoughts and emotions (I can never write about my mother in-law as long as she's alive) out of fear of what reactions they may garner from others. I have not divulged any deep, dark family secrets or been explicit regarding personal relationships, but it still bothers my husband that I can share my mundane anger or disappointment with total strangers and not him.
I don't see it that way at all.
I don't know how I see it, but that's not it.
He has a fair point and maybe this is just highlighting some on-going communication problems.
How do you decide what to write about?
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Timing is Magic
I was going to be converted, after all of these years on PC systems, to a Mac...on Christmas...and I almost felt like saying, "Yes Virginia, There is a young Santa Claus, St. Nick, who is teaching English in Seoul."
Sunday, December 13, 2009
The Christmas Cat
About the time Morris was trying to set the record for the oldest orange short-tailed cat in California, we bought a small winter home in Arizona in a 55+ gated community. We began hauling four cats to and from Tucson. By then bow-legged, with that bony crown old cats get, Morris needed a step to get into bed and stood by the chair so Dave could lift him onto his lap. Morris died in Tucson three years ago– the day before Thanksgiving. Nurse Sweetie was by his side.
That Christmas, just before dark, the horned owl who lives on our street called for his mate. Outside on my porch, a tiny orange kitten hiding among the flower pots peeked through the glass door. I couldn’t hear him, but his mouth was saying, “Let me in quick. It’s freezing out here and that horned owl wants me for dinner.” I scooped him up, asked him if he was Morris, then checked his tail. This cat was orange with circles on each side. A white cross of longer hair ran down his backbone and across his shoulders. He had more tail than any cat needed. I put him down. He ran across to Dave, jumped in his lap and snuggled up. That night when Dave went to bed, he followed and crawled up beside him where Morris used to sleep.
Not everyone welcomed him. The next day, the other three realized there was a new kitten in the house who planned to hang around. Nurse Sweetie still missed Morris. She growled and crawled back under the bed. Rascal, the hunky mellow male cat hissed and warned this mouse-sized kitten to keep away– he was head honcho now and didn’t want him around. This new kitten flattened his ears, turned sideways and raced as fast as he could down the laminate floor and charged Rascal, knocking him off his feet, letting Rascal know he was here to stay. We began to worry Rascal might kill him. Rascal liked to dance backwards on hind feet swinging his catnip mouse by the tail in circles. That mouse often landed in the kitchen sink. Would this new kitten with the long tail end up in the sink? In the summer, the other fluffy female brought dead squirrels to drop by my door. The kitten nipped at her toes and I wondered if he’d soon be a present by my door.
By the time we could get him to the vet three days later, he’d settled in– more or less. We’d inspected his belly. He had fourteen evenly spaced white button spots on his belly. Dave named him Freckles. The vet checked his teeth and guessed he’d been born some time around Thanksgiving. Pets are only allowed in one small section. Somehow, he’d found his way to the pet section and one of the few homes with cats.

He was a pest. When he got wound up, the white cross on his back stood up and he’d zip around on the laminate floors banging into walls, or other cats. He’d crawl in drawers climbing up and down, peeking out at us, hiding if we tried to catch him. He was told, “Settle down, dammit” so often, I thought he might think that was his name. When I brought a new printer home, he decided it was his bed even before I hooked it up. He soon learned which button made the paper come out. He’d poke the button then bend over and watch the paper feed out.
Rascal and Freckles have battled since that first day. In their own special game, they charge up belly to belly then fall to the floor kicking and biting. Somehow nobody’s ever been hurt. And Sweetie, who grew moody and grouchy after Morris died, lets Freckles wash her face and snuggles up with him when she’s lonely.
Freckles would make a good Walmart greeter. He spends his mornings hanging out the window blinds, talking to dogs and people on their way down the street to the dog walk. A neighbor snapped his photo last year.
Merry Christmas.
I blog about women’s issues on Lyn’s Circle and Wednesday’s Woman. I welcome guest posts on both blogs. I also blog on Traveling New Zealand.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
How Are You Doing Today?
We didn't mean for it to happen, but right now, we are in the ICU of the blogosphere. Many of the blogs I have followed have trickled off to the aimless post to see if there is a heartbeat of a response, a comment, a twitter, or the best case scenario of being reposted somewhere.
It takes faith to realize that you created your blog with a vision (I hope so anyway). It didn't have to be pretty, but it had to be real....an element of you that you were presenting to the world. It takes guts to fall on your face and more guts to get up.
So, I am asking, all of us...a real question...What do we want to see TWCB turn into? We all need to commit to this blog to not just trumpet our latest project, but the dialogue going into what our writing means to us. Let's talk about our struggles, be supportive, and yes...wear our hearts on our sleeves.
This is a blog that drew me into finding some of the most fascinating wonderful women writers from around the world. I know you are out there....still.
All the best from Daegu, South Korea.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Longbourn's Unexpected Matchmaker
by. Emma Hox
(copied from the publisher's website)
What would happen if Mr. Darcy made friends with a mysterious member of the Meryton neighborhood who refuses an introduction but who has a close relationship with the Bennet household?
Elizabeth Bennet, the second of five daughters to Mr. Thomas Bennet has caught the attention of the rich and handsome Mr. Fitzwilliam Darcy almost from the moment he laid eyes on her, but when he purposefully misinterprets her families expectation of her marrying well and slights her in a way unknown to those who have always loved Jane Austen's acclaimed Pride and Prejudice, he must leave forever or make amends. Sulking in the library he determines to leave the place and give her up, but is waylaid by a member of the Meryton neighborhood who claims an intimate acquaintance with the Bennet family and offers up advice on how to win Elizabeth's heart.
Longbourn's Unexpected Matchmaker puts a spin on Pride and Prejudice that no one would ever expect as Colonel Fitzwilliam attends Mr. Bingley and Mr. Darcy to Netherfield, Elizabeth Bennet is witty enough to detect the motives of Mr. Darcy's long time enemy Lieutenant Wickham and Georgiana Darcy is bold enough to defy her brother and cousin and comes to Meryton in the midst of a storm. Not to mention Caroline Bingley, Lieutenant Wickham and Lady Catherine are all working against our hero and heroine ever finding their own happily ever after.
Doesn't this sound thrilling?
My first experience with Jane Austen's novels occurred over 15 years ago and I've been a fan ever since. It all started with the book 'Emma' and the next thing I knew, I was hooked!
So imagine my surprise and excitement when I received an email from author, Emma Hox, asking me to review her book, Longbourn's Unexpected Matchmaker, on my blog!
Of course I said YES!
There are no words to describe how much I look forward to reading this intriguing version of Pride And Prejudice and I can hardly wait to let you know how I enjoyed it!
In the meantime, you can get your own copy at Amazon.com or directly through Rhemalda Publishing! Better yet, if you happen to live in the area, Emma Hox is debuting her new novel personally with a book signing at the Wenatchee Hastings: Friday, December 4 at 1:00 PM!
Address is: 315 North 9th St., Wenatchee, WA 98801.
If you can't make it to the Wenatchee Hastings on December 4th, but would like a signed copy, order yours directly from Rhemalda Publishing and be sure to note on your order that you are requesting a signature from the author!
Happy Reading!
Saturday, November 14, 2009
A 'Last Chance' Gift Exchange!

Have no fear...
I'm hosting a 'Last-Chance' Secret Santa Gift Exchange!
Whether you missed sign up deadlines, or you've only now realized that you would like to be involved in a gift exchange, or even if you are already participating in other exchanges and would like to join in on one more...
I'd love to have you join us!
Come on by Tranquility... and Turmoil to find out more and to sign up!
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Would you ...could you?
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Today's Post Sponsored By The Letter...
This epic television series is now shown in 120 countries with a vast assortment of characters to cater to socio-economic and geographic-specific issues. My challenge to find another show with world-wide reach and appeal as this has come up empty.
Today the 4,186th episode aired and I sat down to watch and sadly, the only thing I took away was, "This show got strange."
And now the phrase I never thought I would utter: When I was a kid, there was a certain daring, brilliance to Sesame Street. It was for children and although it is still for children, I observed adult interference; an unnecessary safety net.
Or maybe my rose-colored glasses have changed focus.
Whatever my feelings, there is no denying Sesame Street's place in history and can only hope any children of my own will find the same joy that I did.
So many favorites, I won't force you to watch them all.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Dona Nobis Pacem (Grant Us Peace)
One day. One voice.
All it takes is one post.
Won't you join us today?
If words are powerful...
then this matters.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Monday, August 31, 2009
Free Writing Contest
Writing Contest

FundsforWriters is a wonderful website. I would highly recommend it to any writer. This is a great contest! - Kimberly
FundsforWriters Annual Essay Contest
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Saturday, August 22, 2009
That growl you hear is me
That growl you hear is me
Though I'm frustrated with Mr. Immelt, I bought a front-loading energy saver GE washing machine, to replace my junk Whirlpool Gold that was barely 7 years old. The new one was delivered this morning. After a brief test and some instructions the delivery personnel left and I felt giddy with a new washer.
I quickly gathered a load of blue jeans tossed them in the machine, clipped open the sample packet of Tide HE, poured it into the reservoir, made the proper selections and pushed start. I tinkered with the new buttons a little and decided it was a very cool appliance. From time to time I peered into the machine and wondered if it was working right. There didn't appear to be much activity inside it.
An hour later when the load was supposed to be finished, it wasn't. It merely hummed. Thinking I must have tinkered too much pushing the new buttons, I turned the machine off and started over. An hour later, nothing but a hummmm. Exactly how I felt. I unplugged the machine, plugged it back in and set it to rinse and spin. An hour later, nothing plus a hummmm. No longer exactly how I felt. Instead I wanted to have an adult "I'm sick already of spending money on high end merchandise that doesn't work" tantrum.
I call GE. I call Lowe's. Though I'm tempted I don't call names and I'm very polite. But, dagflippitynabbit, I'm really ticked! I want a new machine and I want it now! GE and Whirlpool I have a message for you: PPPPLLLLLLBTTTTTTHHHHHHHHH!!!
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Real Life..Christina DePauw Heald
"I've realized this year that, for whatever reason, I was supposed to lose it all--or come really close. I have spent months in self-reflection and I have come to realize a few important things:
I can't control everything.
In order to become the person I want to be--I need to throw away the person I am.
I spent my 20's hung up on my outward beauty. I spent much of my 30's working on my inner beauty. What I realize finally in my 40's is that your LASTING beauty is what will ultimately define you. "Christina DePauw Heald writes a blog about her struggles and battles with breast cancer. Finding her, in this maze of the world wide web of information and disinformation was not unlike finding a long lost sister.
Most of us have been touched by someone who is battling this disease. They have good days, bad days, and mostly people honestly don't know what to say as the exchange hopeful smiles and secretly hopes they are not the ones who have to some day hear the news that seemingly too many people are hearing, "you have cancer." The reality I live with is that the odds are not in my favor, but I refuse to think about it. You don't want to open Pandora's box, and yet every month I breathe a sigh of relief that nothing is wrong (yet).
My mother, was only 55 years old, diagnosed with Stage IV of ovarian cancer and died 2 months and 5 days later. Yes, it was horrible. However, like Christina, she tried to impart as much wisdom as she could before she died in between treatments that seemed to only make her die more quickly. Treatment looked worse than the disease. Anyone who chooses to go through treatment is making a decision to fight like hell to live. They are courageous.
I had many other friends who have battled this disease, and two women that I remembered the most who were going through treatment at the same time, at the same stage...where one lived and one died. It totalled my surviving friend, burdened her with survivor's guilt when she received the news that her body was clear of the disease shortly after the death of her friend.
This mortality we are all cursed with, was a lesson. That too often we don't enjoy life and don't value each other enough. I encourage you to stop by Christina's blog, Specifically Speaking and offer your words of support and encouragement. She is a heroine in a time when the world has gone mad.
Marilyn Campiz
Writer, author, poetess
The Lotus Sutra Chronicles - An American ex-patriot's personal blog about her adventures, observations, and personal quests for art and a good red wine while teaching English in Daegu, South Korea.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
What's in a Name?
The reality of the situation is I did not feel like going to the Social Security office and the DMV.
Full of pre-teen angst and sure the history of this name changing ritual had roots amongst the mindset of treating and trading women as commodities, I frequently tested the tolerance of my gender-role traditionalist, hyper-religious father by proclaiming, “I am not a piece of property!” and demand to know why upon getting married I was “expected to exchange one man’s name for another?” It is unknown if the anger my father displayed was due to my obstinance or my three younger sisters being within earshot.
As I got older, I really started to love my surname; I could not be Jessica without Eiden. It was slightly odd and just rare enough that my siblings and I knew if a stranger could pronounce it correctly it was assumed they were acquainted with a member of our extended family.
On the other hand, my middle name invoked feelings of a different nature, despite it also being a family name.
Louise has been the middle name of the first-born daughter for generations on the maternal side of my family tree. It always made me cringe; mean old ladies with fierce old lady hair were named Louise. It also dumbfounded me as I have an older sister.
Years later, while discussing the choice with my then-fiancé, I decided that not only would I take his surname, I would replace my middle name with my maiden name. Quite the traditional move for this non-traditional gal.
In February of this year I found myself standing in line at the Social Security office without my morning coffee. An hour later, the clerk took my faded card, tossed it aside and asked me to sign here and here. Two weeks went by and an envelope arrived.
The whole process was so easy and effortless, not a single consequence crossed my mind. I opened the envelope and saw my new name. I shuddered. I sat. I sobbed. And sobbed. And sobbed.
What had I done?
There, on a very official government document was this foreign name. Jessica Eiden Smedley. Who the hell was that? I had no idea and did not care to learn.
It felt like my past was being erased and the only person to blame was me. The irrational thoughts continued; somehow I had to return to my very expensive alma mater for the repeating of my undergrad because Jessica Eiden Smedley never went to college. I was not even sure she had the high school transcripts to submit for college admission. Who was going to tell my siblings they were down a sister? Were the numbers in my mobile telephone automatically disappearing? Is Jessica Eiden Smedley a vegetarian? A runner? Registered as an Independent?
In a matter of seconds I had reduced myself to a friendless, meat-eating, apathetic nobody trying to pass the kindergarten entrance exam by spelling her name correctly. And failing.
My husband found me crying in the dining room.
“You didn’t have to do it.”
He was right, but honoring my commitments is just another way to showcase all of my stubborn glory. No matter how ridiculous.
The following month I received rather distressing news from my best friend and was soon on an airplane bound for my hometown 3,000 miles away. During my month long stay, I spent a few nights at my mother’s house.
My parents were divorced many years ago. This shattered the family emotionally in ways that are still felt today, so to recognize the historical significance of this seemingly mundane event, one would require much more time to write than I have available as well as signed disclosures from the family attorney and mental health professionals.
It was big. It was important. It was going just fine.
Wanting a lunchtime excursion found my mother, my youngest sister, her girlfriend and myself driving downtown. I was taking my turn in a spirited conversation with my sister, which included a playful insult. Her jaw dropped and between fits of laughter she managed, “Jessica Louise Eiden! That is so gross!”
“You know that is not my name anymore, right?”
“Oh, right. Jessica Louise Smedley! That is so gross!”
“Actually, I took Eiden as my middle name.”
My sister continued to talk about…something. I did not hear a word because of the look on my mother’s face. She was driving so I could not get the full effect, but what I saw while in the passenger seat, was more than enough.
Her single look conveyed a level of sadness that I did not think possible from a woman that had unfairly been plagued by grief throughout her 51 years. The wind was knocked out of me and my body went numb.
Her convictions were always understated. She would not remind me that her middle name, my grandmother’s middle name and great-grandmother’s middle name were elegant protests against the unfortunate occurrences caused by the men in their lives. She would remain silent and refuse to show any vulnerability in front of her daughters.
I chose Eiden over Louise. I chose him over her.
I broke my mother’s heart.
After lunch we went to my favorite bookstore where I managed to break away from the group and locked myself in the bathroom. I sobbed. And sobbed. And sobbed. I just could not get it right.
Jessica Eiden Smedley has existed for six months. The petty, unreasonable thoughts have been replaced by small grins when I forget to sign “Smedley” or do not recognize my name being called. I insist upon the full version of my name because I cannot be Jessica without Eiden.
But, if anyone ever slipped Louise in there, I would not mind.





